Can you imagine what my father must have been feeling? What could he do for his son all burned up in the hospital to help make things right? Well, I suppose the answer is nothing really. Life simply sucked at that moment, pure and simple. Or did it? Sure, there was the intense pain, fear, and anger present. Yet, how much of it was I choosing? Pain is inevitable, but isn't suffering, at least to some degree, a choice. Truth is I was choosing the space of victim. My head, my thinking was creating far more drama and turmoil than the terrible event itself. What was life asking of me right then? How might I get out of my awful funk and choose to make the best of things, such as they were?
Today I look back on this so-called tragedy and consider myself "burned to life". I'm here today far more awake and consciously aware of each grain of sand as it falls through the neck of my hourglass of life. I wasted so much of my sand those many months futilely complaining, criticizing, controlling, chasing, clinging, competing, and comparing. How are you using your sand today? In time, don't things always turn out alright?
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